Most Vulnerable Post To Date

I was going through some old photos on my computer, and came across this video.  You see when I was 22 years old, I was struggling with my self image. I was depressed and felt helpless. To the point that I created a video entry for The Biggest Loser. I am not going to lie it is a rather long video (10minutes) . I open up about my life, family and relationships. You see old pictures and how heavy I was.. then. What is shocking is I let myself get even larger than that after that video.

I watched this video and couldn't hold back my emotions.  I was so depressed, workout illiterate and so close minded to other options. I thought what I needed was a tv show to help me.  Now I realize I needed to know that I could do it.  I needed something to aspire for. I needed to believe and inspire myself, before I could do anything, let alone try inspire others.

I cannot deny my reluctance to posting this video, I look and act ridiculous. I was trying way to hard to get on this show. I didn't see that then, but I see that now.  I also see a girl that was struggling with self esteem, confidence and had only been put down by so many people. I show this to you not for you to laugh ( except at the stupid funny parts) but to show you that it is inside of you.  You have what you need to succeed. I had that desire 4 years ago. I just didn't realize it till recently. I urge you to do some true soul searching. Whether you are longing for weight loss, love, confidence, children, or what have you.  If there is even a morsel of desire that you can bring to the surface, I guarantee there is more inside of you that you can pull out to show you can succeed now.  Don't wait as long as I did to discover this. Change your life now.